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Every year seems to misremember.
Every year seems to forget you.
A reflection of my past to carry until dirt.
a glass or paper portrait bathed in television.
was it of disease or of bone?
we spent concave nights on couches,
and a few more in the door,
hesitant and undecided.
Let it gather dust, leave it still.
Scripted laughs got in the way of the ticking air.
What was left to do but wait and watch.
the clock's hands wrapped and pulled,
nothing we could do.
your hell is my own,
every year, i feel it creep close,
i can't outrun an inheritance of rust.
my palms glazed with your sweat,
the same gap between my brain and tongue.
You exist nowhere and in mirrors.
Show me what wasn’t.
Show me what will be.
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3. |
Crossed - Long Night
01:44
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I always say that this is a dirty mess
but this night I have feared the light
I can't see
Let me breath
Anxiety
Lie to me
Following my pain like a lost dog
Anxiety is in my memory
I always say that this is a dirty mess
but this night I have feared the light
I cannot feel this dread forever
But my breath does no longer exist
I can't see
Let me breath
Anxiety
Lie to me
Dead to me
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Quarantine the virus
We can’t afford such freedom
Pull yourself together
We don’t want you to feel anything, no
Passing the eyes of needles
We can’t get into heaven so we’ll reside in hell
We don’t want you to feel anything
We just want you to scatter
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Sometimes I don't want my heart to break
Added bonus if my bones don't ache
Long ago I waded the river
Thought I left you drowning within her
But that's not what I think
When I think of you
I think about the relief
Ignore the mountains of grief
And sometimes I wish
You were in my veins
Only dead men stay
(Sleep for a while
Don't go astray
Take in the sights and sounds
Only good men stay
And if your waiting
For the perfect day
Every moments best
As you'll soon say)
Suddenly I feel my spine shiver
Feel the ghosts scratch at my liver
But that's not what I think
When I think of you
I think of times I survived
And of feelings you brought alive
And sometimes i wish
You were in my veins
Only the dead can say
Was it worth it all
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I'd bleed for you in the bedroom
Because I know no other way
To tell you how I feel
Except in metaphors and wordplay
I know how much this means to you
Separate myself from the list of things that I
Dwell on as a means to my own end
It's easier said than done
I give in to the ever-present
Worship
Breathe
Warm breath
Leave me
Save yourself
Take my word
Your better off with someone else
I feel the cold, fragrant air
Mixing in with these feelings of despair
I only exist in this world as a vessel
Of self-fucking hatred and pain
Total annihilation
I could count all of my bones.
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7. |
Floral - The Good Song
04:19
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No melodies or reveries from maudlin dudes with weak knees
Or dick strangling fantasies are hard enough to appease
Scrawl it all on birch bark under leaves in outer dark
This pen blends in with pitch black from French films I've learned that
The donkey and the girl through labor are redeemed
Stick around and do it right until you get it perfect
Dress that wound
Tap that dance
Stick your nuts in a cocktail glass
Neon gaslight work night you promised me breakfast I'm fucking tired
Your fridge looks like white out my patience has expired it sucks dick
Is this a casino or is this a foggy limbo
Put it on the wall
Frame it up
Cause I suck
Practice, you fuck
Problem is you wrote the riff first
Practiced it until my wrist hurt
Pointless and arcane terrific nothing wrong with algebraic
Make me famous anonymous and prolific
Walking chemistry set a rat's nest of crossed wires and I am fucking tired
Self obsessed perfection obnoxious and disliked but you tell me that
The people that you know all say that I'm a nice asshole
We are the ones who asked Draco to go harder
With all the people's random tasks called to order
The scythe is not what cuts the grass it's this blowtorch
The den is just a portal to a red backporch
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Peel back my skin
Peel back my skin
Peel back my skin
Peel back my skin
Hold that pose
Decompose
Hold that pose
Decompose
Hold that pose
Decompose
Hold that pose
Decompose
Towers of flesh
Towers of bone
Towers of flesh
Towers of bone
Sleeping with the swarm
Sleeping with the swarm
Sleeping with the swarm
Sleeping with the swarm
Plant the dead and see if they grow back
Plant the dead and see if they grow back
Plant the dead and see if they grow back
Plant the dead and see if they grow back
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Ljesus - Low-key Moist
01:25
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Lurch - Red Sky
03:55
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Behold, the Red Sky
As a sign of the end
Angels of death spread their wings and
Kill us all
We are expendable
Crowds drenched in chemicals
Reduced to matter and piles of flesh
Save the rich and slaughter the rest
Slaughter the rest
All cities crumble
Dead bodies tremble
Kill us all
We are expendable
Crowds drenched in chemicals
Reduced to matter and piles of flesh
Angels of death
Bring forth our final breath
Sinners and Saints
None of us are safe
Mass genocide
Bleh
All cities crumble
Dead bodies tremble
Every city and every town must be erased
Those who aren't worthy of redemption
Will be sacrificed under the Red Sky
The world is covered in smoke
They set the fire just to watch us choke
Angels of death, kill us all
Angels of death, kill them all
Angels of death, kill us all
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I am possessed from within
There are legions
Pulsating through every vein murderously
Unholy ghosts crucify every pure thought
Left in my head
I am powerless
Burning from within
My blood begins
To boil like a lake of fire
Under my skin
Burning from within
My blood begins
To boil like a lake of fire
Under my skin
The furnace boils quart by quart
Spewing scalding blood
Scalding blood through a brimstone heart
Please save me from this suffering
Please make it stop!
Please make it stop!
Please make it stop!
I can feel them in my blood
Please save me from this suffering
Please make it stop!
Please make it stop!
Please make it stop!
I can feel them in my blood
Evil spirits have arrived
They have slipped through the cracks
Of the eternal divide
They seek to occupy a living host
Usurp the throne of the Holy Ghost
At the moment when the clock stuck three
I could feel the demons start to stir inside of me
My blood would boil with the heat of 1000 suns
I could smell the stench of sulfur when I filled my lungs
In a moment of silence
The spirits speak to me
I hear a cacophony of devilish taunt
They say there’s only one escape…
”Slit your wrists! Bleed the demons out!”
”Slit your wrists! Bleed the demons out!”
”Slit your wrists! Bleed the demons out!”
”Slit your wrists! Bleed the demons out!”
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Death oh won’t you take me?
Oh just clutch me dear, take me far away, you are my escape for incalculable years
Take me oh fucking lift my soul, away with the absence.
Step into the unknown
Traveling passages which we are not to quickly forget
Goodbye, I can’t escape death so why make attempt to hide
Goodbye to body and mind
Oh goodnight, goodbye
Take me comfort me through the null
The light I find blinding, in dark? I devolve.
There is no awakening so hasten please, hasten please, you’re all that I need.
Free, times no toll on me as I reach out and take hold of eternity
Free from my misery
I am here I am now, I am everything
Traveling passages which we are not to quickly forget
Sensations receding, maybe it's deceiving, goodbye my sweet dream for I leave you this evening
If, we grow to overcome
Then what’s withholding us?
When we surpass our constructs of time we can truly take hold of all thats divine.
A never ending existence
Let time pass the present it brings death overturn the tides of time
Outreached my mortal hands in hopes of attaining death, the suffer, existence, pain, hope slipped away, but it was breathe, my fucking breath, brought me back to flesh.
All as one, overcome, tides of time can't rewind
Rewind
As if we were one
Overcome the sun
Times tides won't rewind
Embrace the divine
Step to the unknown
Take me holy ghost
Overcome the sun
Overcome
The sun
As if we were one
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You wanna die?
Get in line
Nobody cares about your dumb pain
What a shame?
Cry me a river, babe
So we can drown in your theatrics
We've seen this performance before
That's right,
Your grief is a predictable motif
"Fuck your everything"
Is what I would have said
When I was dead
Or rather
Unborn
A treacherous recluse
Devoid of Christ's Guiding Love
So you love drugs?
Join the fucking club
We all wear matching apathy
And earn masochistic badges
So you transcend?
Wait till you taste skid row
We'll plant your torture garden
And we'll watch that shit grow
Devils in your ear
Devil in your residence
God left this hell hole long ago
So we bathe in sin
Front lines of tireless shame
Family and friends
Have been exhausted
Mother bear,
Where were your when Papa forced my head to his waist?
Were you washing the blood off my whites?
Or hanging bleached lies on dancing clotheslines?
Oh you weak honey-soaked maiden gal
What good are those fangs?
Or mighty roar?
When your skull is thicker
Than your bovine denial
We shall forever stay
Fucktoys
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It wants to stay
And won’t go away
Never ceasing to irritate
I’ve felt it digging through my eyes
to burrow deep inside my mind
Eyes up, Don’t look away
Dont waste this
Forget your faces
They’re tasteless
You know you hate tricks.
Take 20 paces
And turn to face this
So listen in you spineless fuck
The pressure built up is unbearable
I’m pulling teeth, I need release
I want a miracle
This incidental fundamental
It’s empirical, how the glass will alter what is shown.
Left alone
The sin we savor
Bear the mark
Of devils favor
Sleeping void
When we awaken
Gripping knurl
When all is taken
Crushed beneath the sands of the hourglass
Every day another stone is placed on my chest
When my lungs cave in will I catch my breath
Catch my breath
Drawn and quartered
By my need to feel
My need to bleed
My duty to please
My Sanity and service
Separate within a furnace
Placed here to unnerve us
This oblivious excursus
My truth, it lies subsurface
In the rhythm that each verse hits
My Purpose, to seek purpose
How significantly worthless
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Skin crawls like the waves of the sea.
Your voice is a sickness, a disease.
Victim to my wrath and disdain
Your voice cold and silent
No longer remains
Light has gone out
Fall prey to the shame
A shadow of a face, you'll haunt the same
Joy comes from the silence of my misery.
Awakened by a cold sweat in the witching hour
Traumatic stress engulfing my psyche
Endless cycles,
The feelings repeated
Never ending
I can't let go.
It never Ends
Invasive thoughts
Torment surrounding me
Bury myself
Endless cycles brought by me
All the love inside has bled out of me like the veins in my arms.
Every breath I take
is a mistake I make
that will surely stop my heart.
Pray for the End.
Giving Up in Life's Torment.
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Satyr - Apogee
03:07
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Cycles
We have nothing to report
After our quest for resilience regarding how we end
Embrace your demise
Lives so determined to change what we can’t alter
Fate will catch up with us
We are born into this curse
Embrace your demise
We have no answer
(Futile attempts amending what makes us mortal)
Our fate seemed so morose
Silence in the name of all bright distant souls
How can we embrace our demise
We’re wasting time
Understandings of this world
Hopes of transcending above
Fall short
Our fate seemed so morose
A legacy we seek
Our fate seemed so morose
A legacy
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Senza - American Robin
01:18
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rain falls / never thirst again / listen closer / the sound tricks / the rhythm’s wrong / deceit / fancy footsteps / meaningless colors / mocking / pinch the gullible / from their homes / fly them out / to foreign soil / a promise of life / never to return
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My past reflecting through my eyes
Im about to jump this bridge so tell me as to why I shouldn't
This life is static, robotic.
Abeyant, in my head.
Going nowhere
Going nowhere
Going nowhere
And its driving me mad
Lights flash by my eyes
But I won’t sympathize
With myself anymore
I’m sick
With a skewed view
I can’t handle it
Consuming what’s left of my time
Calcified over time
Into something valueless
Anchored by this
Burden I keep
take it from me
take it from me
Take it all
Motion sickness
Has me spinning
Vertigo
and it’s dizzying
As if You could decide anyway
What if I decided I don’t want to say anything?
Thinking of the solace
In my heads like a home to me
Cycling through the phases keeps me wondering,
Endlessly
I dont know if I can bear with it
Dejection seizes comfort
Guess it doesnt matter I'm already
Exposed to this evil phenomenon
Rescind my life
left foot planted
firmly on the ledge,
Stagnant air with no time left
Quietly spoken to no one, under his breath
“They won’t miss me and I won’t miss this”
And As if from nowhere
A gestured urevealed,
purpose promised, power granted and knowledge prescribed
“I can take you somewhere, much better than here”
Almost familiar but the eyes tell of a warning sign
But then it was promised, I give you my word
Keep talking to yourself and you’ll never be heard
It’ll your life
It’ll change our life
It’ll change your life for the better
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Thin - dawn
01:09
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I first remember
Red flannel
Gut singing, digits plucking
Spanish nylon strings
Tying the beginning and end
Greeting and farewell
Nod to a passerby
The introduction to song
In a mint green trailer
Swallowed by the New Mexican desert
A fragment of a fragment
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Totally Unicorn - Grub
02:16
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Smile
The shade you throw wont hide my shadow
Smile
Talk for a living and mute your own death
Smile
Ill fake this glance so youll be amused
Smile
You wont get far if you walk in my shoes
Forfeit self
Forfeit honor
Forfeit respect
Forfeit common decency
I'm waiting for you to liberate my fucking mind
I've heard of you before
You walk across water
You split the red sea
belittle me
I'll welcome death and take this darkness as my solemn bride
Yerning for her cold embrace
Forever smiling At Peace
Arm the Cynical
Share your dispair
This is yours
Wither away with or without it
Such a pitiful burden
You should smile more
Put me down
Size me up
Four sided
Triangle
Swallow your delusions of grandeur
You dont know me bitch
Arm the Cynical
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Transcend my head
These thoughts arbitrary
It crawled up through the sun
And put a shimmer in your eye that marked you the one
Dump you from bridges to your secured spot in heaven
I’ve got your ticket to paradise
It’ll be the last stop
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- the tide begins to turn - your creaking vision turns to fog - suspicions shown nefarious but true - you attempt to ground yourself but the ground begins to melt and you’re left to assume - you bludgeon it - bury it - pray that this subsides - a streamlined vision floods your eyes - an illustrious light - a wicked product of the mind - a veneer - a facade - error - theories seem to nullify realities we cherish - a means to employ terror - the dark endeavor - error in facade - vivid concentration means everything to your hell - life becomes the error - fixed contempt of the public - hidden in the guise of common sight - full disclosure of torment - everything you love is qualified - everything you own is quantified - disconnect of the way out - living now becomes a means to die -
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